-Elisabeth Eaves, Wanderlust
"Are we obligated to know the important event of our time? Or is the whole project of knowing, of being a part of society, neither moral nor immoral, but just a way to pass the time? Is it enough to do no harm to the world, or do you have to contribute too? I wanted to go toward the man-made heat and light, the cultural center, the heart of civilization. At the same time, I didn't want to get off the boat."
A warning to the reader, you are about to delve into the messy confines of what I call my brain. Maybe you'll consider it a train wreck and can't look away, maybe you'll find cheap amusement in my struggle, or maybe you'll find some solace in knowing that you're not the only one that sees the world in this light.
Currently I am root bound. I'm not used to being in one place for so long or being so deeply immersed into several parts of my community. I don't see this as a bad thing, on the contrary, it's beautiful. It's just that I'm not used to this way of living since my husband and I considered ourselves "nomads" for so many years, and I'm a bit afraid I'll never be able to find my way back to the type of freedom we once had.
|Our furry child|
Although my husband and I just had a conversation about this whole topic, and we share similar views, there is no way I can be inside his brain so from this point on in the post, I will just speak for myself.
|The freedom of carrying everything on my back|
What does all of this have to do with biking you ask (since this is a bike blog)? Well, I'm trying to strip things down to the basics. Get rid of the extraneous things in my mind and in my day to day living. My husband once had a dream of carrying everything he owned on his back for a year--including the trash he produced. I love him for this. It's one of the reasons I was drawn to him so many years ago and am still. What I'm trying to say is I want to live a simpler life so I have the mental and physical ability to wander. I want to be able to roam on two wheels, around my neighborhood, throughout the state and across the world. I want to be able to stay connected with my community (both biking and living) and yet have time to dream and get lost.
|I will bike many miles to visit baby goats!|
So how do I continue to contribute in ways I know make a difference and still strip down? That is the question of the year...maybe even the next several years. This is all a bit too "heady" for me. In fact, I'm sure I just wasted ample wandering time by writing and pondering all of this. So, this is where I'll sign off. Lost, a bit confused and still inside the circle.